Why Am I Unhappy And What Should I Do?
So, I’m currently in nursing school at a private (expensive!!) college that I transferred to. I never lived on campus, and while I have gotten to know a lot of great people, it hasn’t been on a very personal level. A lot of the times I feel like I don’t really have any friends here. Also, I’m not doing very well in my classes and I’m not sure if it’s because of this lack of connection, or because I’m just not interested in nursing. I’m considering on going to the public university in town, where there’s a lot more people, and pursuing an undergraduate degree in psychology/pre-OT. I’ve been working as a CNA and I just don’t think I’ll find what I want out of a career in nursing. It seems like it’s so much paper work and passing out meds, you don’t even really get to know the patient that well. Deep, personal connections are very meaningful to me, and I don’t think I could work with a large number of people on a superficial level. This is what I’m coming to find, but I’m worried about making the wrong choice. It seems like since college started all I’ve ever done is make the wrong choice, and I’ve been so depressed because of it. I’ve been through a lot, all the way down to feeling so hopeless and worthless that I thought suicide was the answer. I just don’t want history to repeat itself, because it’s looking like it would be similar- transferring (again), living off campus, hard to meet people, feeling isolated/lonely, depression, … i don’t even want to get into what would be next.
Also, for those psych majors out there, I’m an INFP 
So, what should I do? Should I stick at the school I’m at and switch majors, or go to the cheaper public university that has a good psychology program and would cost me half the tuition? I want to make up my mind before spring semester.
thanks for your help.
If you really feel that way then I guess you better take the risk and transfer. But maybe you’ve just been closing your mind and heart and failed to see that there are people nearby who can help you, even unconsciously?
I feel you very well. I also made a lot of bad choices concerning my education. I have 2 (two!) BA degrees in different areas which i hate and never worked in. I have another technical diploma which i also never worked in. Now at the age of 33 i’m a nursing student in a 4 year BSN program. Finally i figured out what i really want and it is to be a nurse. What helped me was volunteering in a hospital in a geriatric department where i had good contact with people, patients. I loved it! Of course i saw nurses who would just distribute medicines and go away. I’m not going to be like this. What interest me (just like you) is interacting with people and those old people had a lot to tell. So nursing is not only paperwork, i think it depends on you how it’s going to be like.
If you absolutely and definetly don’t want to be any of those then leave and go for psychology. Ask yourself if psychology is your passion and can make you happy or it’s just easier to pass it at school. The choice should be positive not negative.
I’m also very depressed about my wrong choices. I’m constantly reminding myself that past is the past and i can’t go back and change it. If you don’t see yourself as a nurse you still can do something with this degree. You can get masters and become a college teacher. You can work in a community, say a school nurse or a prison nurse
Finding friends should not be a factor in your decision. I made one of my wrong choices because i wanted to be with my friends. But it was good for them not for me. Also finding friends is very unpredictable. You can as well find some friends in your current school because you teamed up with somebody and discovered she is a great person. You can as well not to find anybody great in a public school with more people. You never know.
Money is an important thing. Your current school is more expensive than a public university. This is the only pro that i see for your transfer. But as i see it there are more arguments for you to stay in your current program or at least your current university. Transferring is not a good experience and can make you feel like a loser. Your mental health should also be taken into consideration. Only if pros of swithing to Psychology and to another university outweght the cons go for it. Weigh them carefully. Then decide and stick to your decision.